It's been how long? I'm still expecting to wake up in my "old" room.
Films are not helping.
Rain certainly doesn't help either.
I'm homesick and I don't know how to get over this...
By all means, "friends", feel free to come in to my life at any time!
This weigh on my chest again, keep getting heavier.
Trying to convince myself that the life will be better...
How can it not? This house is prettier!
Got a garden that has cats and kittens in it!
Even pink roses and god knows how many more flowers!
It's usually sunny outside! Everyone is cheerful to be neighbours!
But it's not my home... Not my flowers, not my room, not my neighbours.
Outside I feel strange to what I see.
Inside I feel like in a deep, endless hole, pulling me in more and more everyday.
After everything I've went through and I've achieved,
I've ended up in this shit-hole again.
Helpless tears and kindness smiles...
All over again.
Oh I wish I could've stayed..!
