2 books in 3 days.

I've read 2 books in 3 days. So you can totally imagine what kind of situation I am in. I am doing everything I can to escape from reality.
As such 3 days ago I have watched 4 films in one day.
It doesn't feel right anymore... this... Whatever this called. The stupid reality. This stupid reality. It doesn't feel right.
I've got too many questions. I've got too many wishes. Too many thoughts. Too many mistakes. Too many regrets. Too many maybes. Too many hopes.
I don't know who I am. I don't know what I want. I don't know what I should do. All I want to do is to escape from reality and so I read... nonstop. 
So the book I've finishes first was called "the boy who could see demons". It literally made me think. Mixed my emotions up. It was too good to be true. After the story was finished I've checked for other books of the writer. Will wait. 
Then I've started and finished "100 strokes of brush before bed" today and I've hated that girl. She was too idiot to see what she was doing to herself. She was an idiot to destroy her teenage-hood just over a heart-break.  
She went through what everyone does but she was a drama queen that was idiot enough to be blind towards the truth: there is a true love awaits you. So while she was losing hope towards that "perfect love" she became a whore. Awesome.


All I wanted to do was to escape from reality and occupy my head with other things instead of struggling with what I have and here I am, angry at a stupid teenager who turned herself into an orgy whore.

I need a break.

Best-FriendShip

I see lots of memes about best friendship these days. One of them said "best friends never let you do stupid things alone".

So, imagine..

A Chinese guy called Woo breaks into your best-friend's house, pees on his rug and you talk him into find the actual millionaire Lebowski to pay for the rug... just because it really tied the room together.
Your friend agrees and goes to see him. Next thing you know he has been thrown out from the premises with a rug he has taken without the actual dude's permission. You guys don't really care and continue bowling.
The issue is, you guys are in a bowling team together and you never see him play, ever. He is there, though, all the time.. either drinking or talking.
Then things go wrong and the millionaire dude asks your friend Dude to help him to get his ex-porn star wife back as she's been kidnapped. Of course you come up with a perfect plan. You take his car, with a package filled with explosives and a bag filled with your dirty underwear to be given to the kidnappers... so that you guys will take the money.
Your plan fails, you fuck up his car, millionaire dude's wife's toe has been cut and next thing you know, your best friend tell you to fuck off! What a Dude, right!
Anyways, after everything happens, the kidnapper nihilist guys puts Dude's car on fire and attacks your pacifist friend which causes a deadly heart-attack. He dies.
You and Dude takes his ashes and you say some clever things and then try to throw the ashes on the ocean. Though you fail because of the wind and you make your best friend cover in those ashes.
Not cool man...
Next thing you know, you turn to your friend and say "fuck it, lets go bowling".
Though, again, you have never seen your friend play it with you, ever.


This is an epic story of best-friendship by Coen Brothers, called The Big Lebowski.